Lost and Forgotten in the Prison System

Silence. The sound of water. Dripping- like Chinese torture She waits to hear something. Anything Nothing. To subside the pain that forces her down until her knees bleed. The clicking yells, cries, the smell of piss Become a blanket of normal. The silence. A toilet cold as ice glued to a sink only one foot away a bed a slab of concrete. A thin mat one blanket. No pillow. A piece of splintered wood. No windows constant light. The sound cars driving through puddles keys and voices it's time to go. She's nervous, innocent, scared but won't say. She is too strong. Too proud but it's not her fault. Shackled.Like her ancestors. Memories.Pain.Anger Surface.A single tear drops 302 months doesn't sound that bad  until you convert it to years and it's over. That quick chatter of the Superbowl. the court reporter drops her head with tired eyes wasn't the first life they took that day. At that moment the judge was the devil, the smell of death. The respected honorable l

Sometimes I wonder, why do people assimilate to coexist. Adhere to that, honor this code switch in a mirror to be competent but verbally communicate what contradicts. Why do model minorities get the long end of the stick? Because they left their country and fought for it. Why is it blacks started crack when? the government was the farmer to that epidemic that will forever last.  Why is it all Mexicans cut grass and Muslims carry bombs and wear rags? Why did Jermaine get 60 years and Timmy got a pass? Why do Natives stay drunk and fight for THEIR land? Who is THE MAN, and what's his plan? Why are peace officers trigger happy and need medication? Why is the shooting range their only dedication? WHY IS IT THAT A POMPOUS SELF CENTERED RACIST IS THE RULER OF THEE AMERICAN NATION.

If I could make plain how much pain is ingrained in my veins or how hard it is to maintain a sane mind frame and why I have to always restrain from going insane. If I didn't have to supplicate to refrain from the recollection of the warfare I contain in my brain. If I could explain why 2 faces have the same name, and why there's so many pictures with no frames. If I was two steps ahead of the game with an unchanging lane or if I wasn't trying to hit a target with no aim. If it was easy to penetrate why it's so hard to change, but can leisurely do the same. If I knew why people react to entertain, and why they push the blame. If there was no struggle or pain.  If I could tell my sons to be brave.  If I just stayed. If I knew what to say... in so many ways my life would be saved.

A bullet can pierce more than flesh, it can suck a family dry until there's nothing left. They're easy to buy, but hard to remove from a liver, spine, or chest. 9 times out of ten, there's no surviving one to the head. An unstable creature can go to a club and empty a clip with no regrets. 4 wounded, seven dead, no suspects. #JusticeForDamario. Terrance Bobo. Michael Ward Jr. Every person that was the victim of a bullet. Editor's Note: This piece is inspired by the story of Damario Johnson. He was a security guard who was shot in the lower spine while trying to diffuse an altercation. He is currently paraplegic as a result of the wound. His family is seeking financial support to pay for the medical bills. If you are moved by his story, consider donating to or sharing his gofundme page .     

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